endless

the pain,

never ending.

the agony,

never ceasing.

the emotions,

never failing.

i will always be grateful for the things and people I have in my life

thank God for songs,

they console this old, aching heart.

thank God for the Internet,

it saves me from eternal boredom.

thank God for blogs,

they help keep my sanity intact.

and thank God for genuine friends,

for the care and acceptance they give.

you leave a hole in my heart each time you're far away

if you ever want to ask

why i hardly touch you,

it's because i'd melt away

even at the slightest contact with your skin..

if you ever noticed

that we don't talk in person

as much as we chat,

it's because the sound of your voice

will echo through my heart

and send shivers down my spine..

and if you ever wonder

why i hardly look at you,

it's because if i stare in your eyes long enough

i could get lost in them..


and i'm scared —

scared that i might never

find my way back..

give this heart its eternal repose

let me go home

into your arms tonight

and everything

will be all right..

let me sleep beside you

as you hold me close

and give this heart

its eternal repose..


♥

there's nothing else in the world that she'd want more than this

the bright, blue skies

do not begin to fathom

what i see in your eyes.

the awe-inspiring view outside

do not begin to describe 

how your nearness makes me feel.

the vast, star-filled sky

cannot comprehend how much

i want you in my life.

i want you —

like i never wanted anything else!

hearts run around endlessly in circles

i guess i've come to realised (finally) that i've been too delusional! i keep thinking maybe one day there'll be a chance.. that if i try hard enough to show her how important she is in my life, maybe someday, she'll learn to love me.. after all this time, what i didn't see was that she was too busy chasing everyone else! :(

a million light years away from you

what is the distance

between your heart and mine?

is it farther than the seven seas and the nine mountains?

no, it's just a few meters away.

but why do you feel so distant

when i reach out for you?

you're just there within my reach,

yet your mind and heart

are a million light years away from me.

love me, don't leave me

take my hand, love

i'll show you the world.

kiss me in the lips, love

i'll reach for the stars and give them to you.

hold me in your arms, love

i'll climb mountains just to be with you.

give me your heart, love

and i promise i'll be with you forever and a day.

♥

you take me in your arms and i woke up missing them around me

it's been two consecutive days since i started having dreams about you.. and those dreams are always the opposite of reality.. i remember having the same dreams about someone in my past.. and i guess fate is telling me that eventually we'll end up like how the other person and me did.. although there's nothing wrong with it, i'm just kinda sad that we'll never be more than what we are now.. :(

pain to the nth power

the excruciating pain

wraps its fingers around my heart.

it clenches its fist

suffocating this fragile organ.

why must i die like this?

why must love turn its back on me?

the prolonged agony

is suffocating me, engulfing my whole being.

the sound of the heart breaking

is more than i can take.

why must everything end now?

why must you walk away from all this?

the sunset of my love

like a withered leaf holding on for dear life,

i cling on to a thin thread of sanity.

like the dying embers of my cigarette,

my love takes a slow and painful death.

and like sharp shards of glass against the skin,

my heart feels the overwhelming pain of rejection.



like the cold winter chill that goes deep into the bones,

the mere thought of you leaves a stabbing pain in the heart.

lost in oblivion

the music stopped —

she can't hear anything

just hushed voices from a distance.

her heart beats frantically.

they're whispers,

she tries to make them out,

but nothing makes much sense.

her heart, 

throbbing harder;

her vision,

spinning uncontrollably.

"stop!"

she can hear herself

screaming at the top of her lungs.

she is lost in the crowd.

where she is,

she can't recall.

darkness envelopes the entire room

and then,

the silence becomes deafening.

our favourite kids in the world

the kids we love and miss so much..
(from left-right) Katherine, Kenneth James, and Christian Mae

♥