a (living) witness to bantayan island's history

according to bantayan island's historians, this is the oldest church in the country.. i believe they didn't change much of it over the years.. to proof that, the doors that were stricken by bullets are still there.. you can see holes in them as well as in the walls that are made of thick stones.. the first time i saw it, i fell in love with how old world it looks.. it definitely takes you back in time! :)

a cheap attempt at poetry

Just like a stranger who knows not her name, 

you pass her by without a second glance

Your eyes do not meet hers like they used to

your gaze go astray with every given chance.

Just like a nomad who carelessly roams from place to place,

you go on with your routine without a care in the world

Yet, you know not of the secret glances she throws

and the painful longing in her heart she holds

So you sit silently in your little corner of the room,

thoughtlessly doing your own thing

On the other end, she hums an old, familiar song

while her heart dies with every sting.

baby, pretend

Originally, this was a song i wrote a few months back.. Someone inspired me to write a song and this was the result.. I have the melody for this, but since I don't know how to play an instrument, it never transpired into a real song.. But here are the lyrics anyway..

you can break my heart to a million pieces

still, that won't stop me from loving you

and though you made my world crumble

you're still the one i long to hold

oh baby, can u

pretend you're still mine

baby, can u

pretend i'm still the one

coz it just hurts so bad to know that you're not here with me

and missing you this much is driving me insane

so, baby

can u 

pretend one last time

happiness  is just a word, i know

but it can mean the world to me

so, how can i be happy now

when i'm feeling lost and so confused

oh baby, can u

pretend you're still mine

baby, can u

pretend i'm still the one

coz it just hurts so bad to know that you're not here with me

and missing you this much is driving me insane

so, baby

can u 

pretend one last time

yes, baby, can we pretend one more time... ♥

the future can be a scary thing to face

today, i went to see my friends' new house.. they acquired it through pag-ibig's housing loan and it is a pretty decent abode given that there's only two persons who will be occupying it.. anyway, after hearing all their plans about their new home and seeing them so preoccupied with picking out furnishings and fixtures, it made me think about my life and what it would be like five or ten years from now..

with my present situation, i'm kinda scared that i might never get the chance to experience what it will be like to build a future with someone else.. it makes me all the more depressed about not having someone special at this point in my life.. i know it sounds pathetic! but that's just how i feel.. :(

friends for keeps

change is the only constant thing in this world..


in the last thirty years of my life, i have met a lot of people who have become a huge part of me.. they have instilled life-altering lessons and have helped mould me into who i am today.. and i am forever grateful for the attention, love, and friendship they have shared with me..

however, people need to move on with their lives to find greener pastures, chase after their dreams, and search for a better meaning for their existence.. sadly, you might not get to see them as often as you used to.. sometimes, you'd even forget to communicate because of busy schedules! and this can put a strain on the friendship.. some eventually fall apart over time, unfortunately.. and though it hurts, you don't have much of a choice, but to move on with your life as well..

although we might lose touch of some of the most important persons in our lives, we shouldn't forget about them.. sometimes it's only pride that's stopping us to make that first move to reconnect with those people, which is really really wrong.. so before it's too late, let's reach out to those folks again.. we never know when they'll be gone from this world and we won't ever get to see them again!


so to all my friends whom i've shared a part of my being with, i hope you all know just how special you are to me.. and that i will always be grateful for everything! ♥

a take on the blogging world

after months (ok maybe years) of making an attempt on blogging, i have finally, finally decided to make one and be serious about it..

so what do i write for my first post? i don't know!

well, if anyone ever comes across this blog and asks what this is all about, well, nothing much.. i made this blog so i'd have an outlet of all the rush of emotions i'm going through.. it's like a fumigation of the soul.. so i hope people don't judge me for what i write here.. :)