Saturday, November 26, 2011

your absence fractured my entire being

you might already know this, but i'm gonna say it anyway..

for the longest time, you were the highlight of my week.. you were the most exciting part of it.. you made me look forward to the weekends, and you made my days go by so swiftly.. in fact, you made my days seem a tad brighter.. i was always smiling, more often than i used to.. what i'm trying to say is that you made living this crazy life more worthwhile.. you made the roller coaster ride so much better!

but now that you're not here, the pain is all-encompassing -- it drains all of my energy and my will to live! it is as if there is a massive void in the very core of my being ever since you went away.. and to make matters worse, there's nothing else i can do but cry.. because there are no words to ever describe the pain i am feeling..

yet, strangely, i don't want to get over you.. in fact, all i want to do is to embrace the pain with all my might.. because i'd rather feel this than nothing at all.. because it is as if this pain is the only thing that reminds me of you, of us.. even if there was never an us!


Tuesday, November 15, 2011

if you're a drug, then i'm a fiend


life can be really unfair at times! and often, it slaps you right in face with the truth that you just can't have some of the things you want no matter how hard you try.. no matter how hard you cry.. and yeah, there's nothing else you can do but cry because of the unbearable pain in your heart.. and though things may not be permanent, the pain is there nonetheless..

i know that this was going to happen, but i didn't think that it was gonna happen this soon.. there wasn't a warning, a sign.. no, none at all! and breaking down the truth to me gently didn't help lessen the pain either.. or spared me from the blow.. i wish there was another way to go through it all.. or at least a way to skip the ugly part and fast-forward to happy days again.. but no, life can be cruel like that too -- every bit of sadness and hurt and desertion must be felt in all shapes and forms..

i guess all i'm saying is that i only miss you when i'm breathing.. ;(




Thursday, November 10, 2011

i faithfully wait until the day you wake up to the reality that is me



a heart that's in pain

can forget the love that endured a thousand storms.

a soul that's been shattered

can lose faith in all shapes and forms.



but my heart has become as calloused

as much as it had grown tired, exhausted.

and this soul finds solace

hoping that one day i could be the one you wanted. 



and so, this love endures all battery,

and so, this love denies all misery.