Saturday, April 30, 2011

a hopeful's unfaltering reprieve

she danced mindlessly

to a seemingly familiar rhythm.

yet, she doesn't mind —

not their stares

not even their selfish banters.

she just danced 

swayed her hips to the melody,

soothing her wounded soul.

at times,

her steps seem to go out of tune

but she moves on and doesn't mind at all.

she closed her eyes

to drown away the crowd

and she listened to the heavy beating of her heart.

this time, she felt the pain on her feet

rising to her groins.

still, she didn't mind.

she just closed her eyes even more

and danced like a fool —

danced like she never did before.


breathtaking sunsets outside my office

working from the 9th floor of the 16-storey building of metrobank has a lot of perks, if you ask me.. for one, there's a higher chance of me not being late for work even if there's only a few minutes left before shift starts.. why? because i don't have to go all the way up the topmost floor.. another reason is that when i have to use the stairs when going down, i won't risk my legs from getting injured since it's relatively near the ground..

but the best thing about situated in the middle of a tall building is that you get a good view of the outside.. and one of the greatest sceneries you'll get to enjoy outside our office is the sunset..




Friday, April 29, 2011

futile

slowly,

i picked up the pieces

shattered, crumpled parts

of what was once whole..

unceasingly,

i walked on the ground

barefoot

on the scorching stone pavement..

but

i won't give up

i won't give in.




the malady that was her frail heart

she danced with the moon

sang like a siren

loved like a mistress

and cried a river.


she kissed the sun

worshiped the Greek gods

sold her soul to the Devil

and bled herself dry.



Wednesday, April 27, 2011

tirelessly in(fatuated) love

the hardest part about falling for someone is that you can't always avoid expecting or wishing for something more than what the other person can actually give.. it's frustrating.. heart-breaking.. overpowering.. nerve-wracking.. and tediously unsettling! and although there's this part of you that's screaming at 10 decibels for you to wake up from the deep and long slumber, you foolishly cling on to the tiniest speck of light that there can be something.. anything..

some will say it's very pathetic, while others may think that you're going out of your mind (and you believe so too)! yet, the more you try to get over it, the more you fall into the deepest, darkest pits of mad emotions! will it ever end, you might ask? well, yeah, it will.. in due time! everything will come to a halt without you seeing it.. and you'll look back at everything and say, "yeah i've been stupid"! but will you have regrets? no, you'll most likely think otherwise because you have loved with all your heart.. you gave it your all — gave your bestest! and though it may never turn out to be the fairytale you'd hope it would be, you know deep inside you'll look back at this point in your life with a smile on your face, butterflies in your stomach, and a few skips of your hear beat..

because somewhere, somehow another being shared a part of his/her heart, mind, and soul with you.. and that's more than enough for you to go on living!


heart over mind

the mind

can deceive you,

make you believe

in things unreal..



but

the heart —

it never lies,

never complains,

never gets tired..



the heart,

it continues to beat

no matter how frail

it may seem.





i left my heart at I ♥ STEAK!

a nice place to wine and dine with family or friends in the uptown area of cebu, is I ♥ steak.. they have a cosy ambiance with contemporary furnishings that will definitely make you feel at home as soon as you step into the restaurant.. although their name has "steak" on it, they serve a wide variety of food, which are absolutely fantastic.. what's more, everything is at relatively cheap prices..

today, my closest friends, my brother, and i went to I ♥ STEAK.. i told them to try the cheese fondue coz it's absolutely delish! :)





the restaurant's warm and inviting interiors

tangigue steak with lemonade

baked scallops

calamares

the ever famous cheese fondue

beef steak pinoy style

the heavenly cheese fondue

and their gastronomic array is truly heavenly!


check out i ♥ steak at the back of mango square mall, mango avenue, cebu city.. it is located beside the casablanca hotel, right across cabanas ktv.. 

euphoric ecstasy

sweet sugar in my veins

pulse rising..

i taste your lips

sweet,

sour

sending me into ecstasy..

the full moon

a living witness

to the fire

that burns within..

held our breaths,

the euphoria —

overwhelming,

unnerving,

emulsifying..

you take me

into your arms

i closed my eyes

and i

died.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

your smile

i see you

through the corner of my eye

heart beats faster

my mind

it goes in a limbo

your mere presence

painfully suffocating

shivers in my spine

breathing hard

trying to gain composure

you lost me

with your smile



Monday, April 25, 2011

another sad tale about unrequited love

may stepped into her office on a monday evening feeling all reminiscent of the long weekend.. yet, somehow she finds relief in the thought that she's back to work.. she opens the door and there's neri sitting in her own little corner of the room.. may's heart starts to throb as she throws a glance at neri's way secretly and heaves a sigh.. may gets on with her chores the way she always does during a typical workday.. everything goes by like a breeze, and without her realising it, it's time to go home.. so she packs all her things back to her bag, shuts her computer down, and goes out of the building..

at a glance, everything looks fine and normal.. you wouldn't, couldn't suspect anything.. but in another part of the room, a heart is aching so badly with so much longing.. and may stays helpless, hopeless over the situation.. there's nothing she can do to change fate.. she's tried everything, but nothing ever worked.. she clung to a flicker of hope that someday, somehow that person will see her the same she does.. but as the days go by, she feels farther and farther away from this other individual.. and little by little, may is losing all sense of hope..

may and neri both work in a call centre company based in makati.. neri started working for the firm a little over a year ago when may was still an assistant supervisor.. may never noticed neri even if she knew she was into girls too.. days, months went by quite quickly and they merely spoke to each other.. maybe it was because may knew that neri was living together with a guy outside work.. one day, they were alone in the elevator and neri confided in may about a bickering with another officemate.. that was the first time they actually talked for a good amount of time.. they chatted outside the building and neri even stayed long enough for may's cousin to fetch her.. may never forgot about this incident..

a few weeks after that, they got the chance to sit across each other, which paved the way for them to get to know each other better.. may and neri shared stories about their lives, relationships, and work, making them closer.. little did they know that things would turn out the way they did.. and before may knew it, she was falling helplessly for neri..

may tried everything she could to shrug off the emotions that she was feeling.. but the closer they get, the more she knows about neri, and most of all, the more she falls deeper.. one day, in one of their conversations over ym, neri tricked may into telling her who she was pining for.. and after much pondering, may gave in and blurted out the word "you".. neri apologised for incessantly pestering her about it.. but it was too late.. it's all out in the open now and there's no more turning back..

at first, may thought that there might be a chance.. she saw a flicker of hope with how neri treats her.. but she knew she was still heartbroken after her breakup with her boyfriend.. days, weeks, months passed so quickly and nothing's changed.. they're still workmates -- nothing more, nothing less!

although neri treats may the same way, she knows that there's nothing more to it than what they currently have.. she knows that no matter how hard she tries, she just can't change neri's mind..

now, may is left asking herself what could she have done to turn neri off.. but somehow, she knew neri is in love with someone else.. and it pains her everyday to know that she can't be that girl!

and the hardest part of it all? it's knowing that she can never be the one who matters most to her!

:(

Sunday, April 24, 2011

i want my own piece of heaven

bantayan island, considered the summer capital of the queen city of the south, cebu, has the most beautiful beaches in the philippines with clear azure waters and long stretches of sugary white sand, making this small island paradise the perfect place to go to when you want some R & R! 

last year, i got the pleasure of visiting this small piece of heaven twice.. first was in february and the last was in october.. 

kota's beach front

lounging under the heat of the sun -- the best way to beat the summer heat!

our cottage at kota beach, which costs only 1,700 PHP/night

our the hotel package we booked was inclusive of breakfast at their restaurant.. we couldn't be anymore happier! :D

you can rent motorcycles for 300 PHP for 8 hours and you only need to fill it with 50 PHP worth of gasoline.. it's the best way to get around the island! 


our first stop was at the madridejos kota park.. it's a public beach resort with a restaurant and this old fortress of some sort

the scenic road to madridejos, one of the four municipalities in the island

one of the churches we visited there

dubbed as the oldest church in the country.. the massive old door behind on the background suffered the wrath of the battle in the ancient times.. to keep their history alive, they 

this wooden bridge leads to a mangrove plantation in bantayan island.. one of the places we visited there

the wooden bridge extends to the inner parts of the plantation

at the mangrove plantation's tree house


posting this blog about bantayan island brings back wonderful memories i've had there with my friends and officemates.. i've fallen in love with the island and their laid back way of living.. and i swear i left my heart there! and someday, when i'll be richer, i'm buying myself a piece of that heavenly isle and call it my home.. ♥

a (living) witness to bantayan island's history


according to bantayan island's historians, this is the oldest church in the country.. i believe they didn't change much of it over the years.. to proof that, the doors that were stricken by bullets are still there.. you can see holes in them as well as in the walls that are made of thick stones.. the first time i saw it, i fell in love with how old world it looks.. it definitely takes you back in time! :)

Saturday, April 23, 2011

a cheap attempt at poetry

Just like a stranger who knows not her name, 
you pass her by without a second glance
Your eyes do not meet hers like they used to
your gaze go astray with every given chance.

Just like a nomad who carelessly roams from place to place,
you go on with your routine without a care in the world
Yet, you know not of the secret glances she throws
and the painful longing in her heart she holds

So you sit silently in your little corner of the room,
thoughtlessly doing your own thing
On the other end, she hums an old, familiar song
while her heart dies with every sting.

baby, pretend

Originally, this was a song i wrote a few months back.. Someone inspired me to write a song and this was the result.. I have the melody for this, but since I don't know how to play an instrument, it never transpired into a real song.. But here are the lyrics anyway..

you can break my heart to a million pieces
still, that won't stop me from loving you
and though you made my world crumble
you're still the one i long to hold

oh baby, can u
pretend you're still mine
baby, can u
pretend i'm still the one
coz it just hurts so bad to know that you're not here with me
and missing you this much is driving me insane
so, baby
can u 
pretend one last time

happiness  is just a word, i know
but it can mean the world to me
so, how can i be happy now
when i'm feeling lost and so confused

oh baby, can u
pretend you're still mine
baby, can u
pretend i'm still the one
coz it just hurts so bad to know that you're not here with me
and missing you this much is driving me insane
so, baby
can u 
pretend one last time

yes, baby, can we pretend one more time... ♥

the future can be a scary thing to face

today, i went to see my friends' new house.. they acquired it through pag-ibig's housing loan and it is a pretty decent abode given that there's only two persons who will be occupying it.. anyway, after hearing all their plans about their new home and seeing them so preoccupied with picking out furnishings and fixtures, it made me think about my life and what it would be like five or ten years from now..

with my present situation, i'm kinda scared that i might never get the chance to experience what it will be like to build a future with someone else.. it makes me all the more depressed about not having someone special at this point in my life.. i know it sounds pathetic! but that's just how i feel.. :(

friends for keeps













change is the only constant thing in this world..


in the last thirty years of my life, i have met a lot of people who have become a huge part of me.. they have instilled life-altering lessons and have helped mould me into who i am today.. and i am forever grateful for the attention, love, and friendship they have shared with me..

however, people need to move on with their lives to find greener pastures, chase after their dreams, and search for a better meaning for their existence.. sadly, you might not get to see them as often as you used to.. sometimes, you'd even forget to communicate because of busy schedules! and this can put a strain on the friendship.. some eventually fall apart over time, unfortunately.. and though it hurts, you don't have much of a choice, but to move on with your life as well..

although we might lose touch of some of the most important persons in our lives, we shouldn't forget about them.. sometimes it's only pride that's stopping us to make that first move to reconnect with those people, which is really really wrong.. so before it's too late, let's reach out to those folks again.. we never know when they'll be gone from this world and we won't ever get to see them again!


so to all my friends whom i've shared a part of my being with, i hope you all know just how special you are to me.. and that i will always be grateful for everything! ♥

a take on the blogging world

after months (ok maybe years) of making an attempt on blogging, i have finally, finally decided to make one and be serious about it..

so what do i write for my first post? i don't know!

well, if anyone ever comes across this blog and asks what this is all about, well, nothing much.. i made this blog so i'd have an outlet of all the rush of emotions i'm going through.. it's like a fumigation of the soul.. so i hope people don't judge me for what i write here.. :)