another sad tale about unrequited love

may stepped into her office on a monday evening feeling all reminiscent of the long weekend.. yet, somehow she finds relief in the thought that she's back to work.. she opens the door and there's neri sitting in her own little corner of the room.. may's heart starts to throb as she throws a glance at neri's way secretly and heaves a sigh.. may gets on with her chores the way she always does during a typical workday.. everything goes by like a breeze, and without her realising it, it's time to go home.. so she packs all her things back to her bag, shuts her computer down, and goes out of the building..

at a glance, everything looks fine and normal.. you wouldn't, couldn't suspect anything.. but in another part of the room, a heart is aching so badly with so much longing.. and may stays helpless, hopeless over the situation.. there's nothing she can do to change fate.. she's tried everything, but nothing ever worked.. she clung to a flicker of hope that someday, somehow that person will see her the same she does.. but as the days go by, she feels farther and farther away from this other individual.. and little by little, may is losing all sense of hope..

may and neri both work in a call centre company based in makati.. neri started working for the firm a little over a year ago when may was still an assistant supervisor.. may never noticed neri even if she knew she was into girls too.. days, months went by quite quickly and they merely spoke to each other.. maybe it was because may knew that neri was living together with a guy outside work.. one day, they were alone in the elevator and neri confided in may about a bickering with another officemate.. that was the first time they actually talked for a good amount of time.. they chatted outside the building and neri even stayed long enough for may's cousin to fetch her.. may never forgot about this incident..

a few weeks after that, they got the chance to sit across each other, which paved the way for them to get to know each other better.. may and neri shared stories about their lives, relationships, and work, making them closer.. little did they know that things would turn out the way they did.. and before may knew it, she was falling helplessly for neri..

may tried everything she could to shrug off the emotions that she was feeling.. but the closer they get, the more she knows about neri, and most of all, the more she falls deeper.. one day, in one of their conversations over ym, neri tricked may into telling her who she was pining for.. and after much pondering, may gave in and blurted out the word "you".. neri apologised for incessantly pestering her about it.. but it was too late.. it's all out in the open now and there's no more turning back..

at first, may thought that there might be a chance.. she saw a flicker of hope with how neri treats her.. but she knew she was still heartbroken after her breakup with her boyfriend.. days, weeks, months passed so quickly and nothing's changed.. they're still workmates -- nothing more, nothing less!

although neri treats may the same way, she knows that there's nothing more to it than what they currently have.. she knows that no matter how hard she tries, she just can't change neri's mind..

now, may is left asking herself what could she have done to turn neri off.. but somehow, she knew neri is in love with someone else.. and it pains her everyday to know that she can't be that girl!

and the hardest part of it all? it's knowing that she can never be the one who matters most to her!

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