you are my temporary bliss

the trouble with living in a make-believe world is waking up to the sad truth that it was nothing but a DREAM..

for the first time in months, i felt needed and wanted (even if it was all make believe).. i felt i had someone to call my own.. and i experienced bliss again.. but it was all borrowed happiness - the way she held me close and kissed me - it was all temporary! a fantasy that i have been trying to live in for so long now.. and now that we're back to what we were before, the pain is just unbearable.. because i realized that nothing that i do matters at all.. and all i will ever be to her is someone she can play make-believe with.. i know she made it all clear that there will be no strings attached and i actually thought that i'd be able to pull it off.. well, you guess it right - i thought wrong! and now, i'm suffering the consequences.. because even if i can have all her time, i still wouldn't be able to get a hold of her heart.. why? because it belongs to someone else.. and no matter what i do, nothing will ever change her mind! :(